I was looking for an appropriate image for this piece and repeatedly came up empty so I finally gave up and decided on this vintage Care Bears moment because I thought it was adorable.

I mean, they are planting a HEART tree.

I haven’t played anything. I have a theory about that.

The past several weeks my living space has reflected the mess of my brain; I don’t function well in anything less than an organized and clean environment. If I told you the main source of the organizational blockage you’d laugh and I couldn’t blame you: stickers.

Yes. Stickers.

I adore stickers and I decided to completely organize all of mine. In theory, this was an excellent idea. In practice, it has resulted in sh*t everywhere while I desperately try (and fail) to get them in sleeves and binders.

This is even more absurd when you find out I already have all the binders and sleeves I need for the project.

The problem is me.

Never mind there are a zillion other things I need to be doing to get things back in order and streamlined. Never mind I want to play new (to me) games so badly and I can’t concentrate enough to even pick up where I left off with Everything, let alone complete it or play something new.

And all of this roots itself in one super dumb cause: my anxiety and depression. I’ve no doubt one or both are keeping me from getting things done, playing any games, or generally functioning like a human being.

This isn’t meant to be a “poor me” situation, rather I’m hoping by getting it out of my system, it will allow me to acknowledge things and move forward. I’m so tired of being useless and making zero progress in quite literally anything I’d like to.

So! This week is a week of lists. There will be micro tasks I can easily complete so I can get myself back on the “dear god please let me complete anything” train. I will move up from there. I mean, there are like two dozen horror movies I have and have yet to watch and I LOVE horror movies and how have I failed even that “task”?

Apparently I’m an overachiever at underachieving.

I’m doing really well (super poorly).

I have to find a way to play games again, even if that means I manually force myself to play for 15 minutes at a time. I have to do anything I can to not be like this. I’m annoying the crap out of myself.

Ruts are bad enough, but ruts mixed with depression are hilariously isolating. It almost literally makes me laugh that I am so far down the hole that I can’t even play games.

I feel exceedingly pathetic. Yay.

So with that I say: all I want this week is to make progress at anything; cleaning, organizing, gaming, catching up on those horror movies; anything. If I can manage to do that, I will be more grateful than I can say.

What will YOU be playing this week? What games are on your radar? What are your most anticipated games of 2019?

I know it’s still cold as heck out there for so many. Please be careful and safe, friends. Cheers.