Writing is a strange thing. Even when it’s shared across the internet, the writing part is quite solitary. When I write, I try to keep the eventual person reading it in mind. They have so many options when it comes to how they spend their time; I try to make my writing a worthwhile experience.
I realize how funny that sounds, me, writing about video games, trying to make that a worthwhile experience, but I really do. I think video games have a tremendous power to connect people in an entirely unique way. I love how they bring people together, whether that is literally playing a game with another person, or simply engaging in discussion about anything gaming related.
When I began my site a couple of years ago, it was (and still is) my goal to engage people in thought and discussion about various aspects of gaming. I wanted to do that on a predictable and reliable schedule, and I’ve at least succeeded at doing that much.
Lately I’ve been feeling rather low. Certain goals I’d set for myself when I started my website have yet to come to fruition. I’ve started to wonder if what I’m writing is of interest to, well, anyone really. I try not to let view counts get me down, but after seeing certain trends (and how long they last), it gets difficult.
And, as yet another E3 is about to roll around, I feel a sadness at not yet being a part of a world I’ve been trying so hard to participate in: gaming journalism.
It’s a fluff dream, I know. But it’s a dream all the same. If I give credence and weight to other’s dreams, should I not give the same to my own?
I have always wanted to attend E3 as part of the gaming world.
It has yet to happen.
And, as I realize I’ve been writing for years now on a very regular basis (and not earning a speck of income, much to my shame), I am no closer to E3 than I was when I started.
That’s a blow.
The ironic part of this situation is that I just paid to have my website and domain for at least another year. So, my friends, it would appear you are stuck with my words living and breathing in the intertubes for at least the next twelve months.
I’m not a person who typically goes in for quotes, but I’ve had this statement from Fitzgerald rattling around my head for years:
“You don’t write because you want to say something, you write because you have something to say.”
Before I started writing, I asked myself if I actually had something to say. I did. And I do. I just hope I can build this website into a place where people can come to be interested and engaged. I’d like people to look forward to coming here and spending a moment thinking about something they might not have otherwise.
It’s these thoughts (and some really wonderful people who have been incredibly supportive) that keep me going.
If you come here to read my words: thank you. Please know you can sign up via email to be notified of each new post on the bottom left of every page. You can also “like” my Facebook writing page, and find me on Twitter occasionally erupting into moderately amusing blurbs about random things. If you know me, you know I loathe self-promotion, so even putting these sentences and links in makes me cringe. Sadly, I’ve come to the point that I know I must do this occasionally if I want to make a real go at writing.
And, despite all my gross inner feelings, I’m still trying. Please forgive the self-promotion. If you dislike it, I apologize, but I also guarantee you I dislike it infinitely more than you do.
If you come here to read, please let me know. I’d sure love to hear from you. I write because I want to connect. And I’m ever so grateful that you choose to come here to my little corner of the internet, no matter how long your visit.
Thank you. You absolutely make all this worth it.
With that, I say, cheers friends. I am gearing up for my E3 2016 “coverage” of each presser, and I will be live-Tweeting my thoughts about all the glorious announcements as they are made. I look forward to all the interactions in the days to come.
Again, thank you. This wouldn’t be the same without you. Hug.