Writing is a strange thing. Even when it’s shared across the internet, the writing part is quite solitary. When I write, I try to keep the eventual person reading it in mind. They have so many options when it comes to how they spend their time; I try to make my writing a worthwhile experience.
I realize how funny that sounds, me, writing about video games, trying to make that a worthwhile experience, but I really do. I think video games have a tremendous power to connect people in an entirely unique way. I love how they bring people together, whether that is literally playing a game with another person, or simply engaging in discussion about anything gaming related.
When I began my site a couple of years ago, it was (and still is) my goal to engage people in thought and discussion about various aspects of gaming. I wanted to do that on a predictable and reliable schedule, and I’ve at least succeeded at doing that much.
Lately I’ve been feeling rather low. Certain goals I’d set for myself when I started my website have yet to come to fruition. I’ve started to wonder if what I’m writing is of interest to, well, anyone really. I try not to let view counts get me down, but after seeing certain trends (and how long they last), it gets difficult.
And, as yet another E3 is about to roll around, I feel a sadness at not yet being a part of a world I’ve been trying so hard to participate in: gaming journalism.
It’s a fluff dream, I know. But it’s a dream all the same. If I give credence and weight to other’s dreams, should I not give the same to my own?
I have always wanted to attend E3 as part of the gaming world.
It has yet to happen.
And, as I realize I’ve been writing for years now on a very regular basis (and not earning a speck of income, much to my shame), I am no closer to E3 than I was when I started.
That’s a blow.
The ironic part of this situation is that I just paid to have my website and domain for at least another year. So, my friends, it would appear you are stuck with my words living and breathing in the intertubes for at least the next twelve months.
I’m not a person who typically goes in for quotes, but I’ve had this statement from Fitzgerald rattling around my head for years:
“You don’t write because you want to say something, you write because you have something to say.”
Before I started writing, I asked myself if I actually had something to say. I did. And I do. I just hope I can build this website into a place where people can come to be interested and engaged. I’d like people to look forward to coming here and spending a moment thinking about something they might not have otherwise.
It’s these thoughts (and some really wonderful people who have been incredibly supportive) that keep me going.
If you come here to read my words: thank you. Please know you can sign up via email to be notified of each new post on the bottom left of every page. You can also “like” my Facebook writing page, and find me on Twitter occasionally erupting into moderately amusing blurbs about random things. If you know me, you know I loathe self-promotion, so even putting these sentences and links in makes me cringe. Sadly, I’ve come to the point that I know I must do this occasionally if I want to make a real go at writing.
And, despite all my gross inner feelings, I’m still trying. Please forgive the self-promotion. If you dislike it, I apologize, but I also guarantee you I dislike it infinitely more than you do.
If you come here to read, please let me know. I’d sure love to hear from you. I write because I want to connect. And I’m ever so grateful that you choose to come here to my little corner of the internet, no matter how long your visit.
Thank you. You absolutely make all this worth it.
With that, I say, cheers friends. I am gearing up for my E3 2016 “coverage” of each presser, and I will be live-Tweeting my thoughts about all the glorious announcements as they are made. I look forward to all the interactions in the days to come.
Again, thank you. This wouldn’t be the same without you. Hug.
Thank you. :)
Firstly, please allow me to thank all who have been an, inspiration, a benefit, and a blessing in the establishment of your web site, as well as to your writing.
Colton, especially to you,Thank you.
Yeah! 12 more months with Rebekah! Be strong , and courageous.
You are on a journey. You set sail 2 years ago. Now you are experiencing the open ocean. Capture the wind, check the horizon, embrace your sunrises, and your sunsets. Be inspired by your surroundings. You will get there, I have faith in you.
Keep smiling, it makes a huge difference.
Thank you. Your words are very kind.
I’d not thought of this journey quite like that before. I like it. I’m in the open sea…where sharks can eat me. I hope my boat is big enough.
But truly, thank you. Your words mean a lot.
Remember, you can eat shark also.
Black Tip, White Tip, Tiger, Maco, Nerf, Reef, & The Great White. Poached in Ocean water, aromatics, & red wine. Wrapped in seaweed, & grilled. Tomato sauce & fried basil any one?
We are going to need a bigger boat.
With all due respect, I’ll pass on the shark.
But speaking of grilled, I’ll take a grilled cheese sandwich, please.
Hey Rebekah! Although you’re in a sea full of sharks; there are people that come along and help you get a little further in your journey. I feel as though as long as someone is commenting on your blogs, progress is being made. Just my two cnts! Keep pressing & writing!
I think the people who come in and out of our lives are like colors in a loom and we are all making one big piece of art. So I think we are on the same page, here.
I can’t tell you how much I appreciate it when someone takes a moment to leave a comment. A small thing to them, a big thing to me.
Not a gamer or writer…. but something in your ‘words’ captured my mind. I would but humbly suggest never worry about a target audience… unless you are already famous it will not matter, just write what you feel about the subject you love and you may be surprised that some of them will start to look forward to what YOU write!
Wow! First of all, thank you for reading this and thank you for your kind words. I’m humbled that you stopped by. :)
I genuinely do write what I feel (thank goodness). As for my concern over the appeal of my work, I was just referring to patterns I’ve seen in my metrics; I’ve seen some strange trends in viewership. Things I wouldn’t have expected. It just gives me food for thought. Even so, I honestly never know which pieces will strike a chord with the reader.
No matter what, I’m grateful to each and every person who takes the time to be here. Thank you!
I enjoy reading these.
Wombat! Thank you. That means a lot.
Hi lady, you know what I’m going to say right; I love reading your articles, so I’m glad you prolonged for another year! Hope you don’t mind, but I sent you an iMessage…I think, lol
Thank you, truly. I always enjoy reading yours, as well.
Of course I don’t mind! But I was super confused. My iPad told me I had an iMessage and it took me far too long to find the message itself! It was my first one! Please expect an email back from me soon. :)