I know I’ve talked about being in a rut over the past few weeks, but, over the last week, it reached a bit of a weird fever pitch. As many of you know, I struggle with chronic health issues, and often get sick on top of it. Over a week ago, I thought I was getting a simple cold, but it felt strange. By midweek, I not only wasn’t feeling well, but I began feeling like I was in a dense and frustrating brain fog. It could be for many reasons, but it’s been enough days in a row now that I feel like I may never see the end of it. It’s making nearly everything difficult from mundane tasks to more thoughtful endeavors, such as writing.
Basically, I’m struggling quite hard with focusing on anything. I haven’t wanted to play games or read, which is completely strange for me. It’s my favorite time of year and Halloween is my favorite holiday; this is the perfect setup for wanting to play Destiny 2’s Festival of the Lost, yet I’ve barely felt like playing each day. I haven’t wanted to play anything at all really.
Allow me to qualify that; I want to play so many things, but right now I can’t find the energy to play anything.
This brain fog is also making me feel deeply stupid; it’s starting to concern me. I know, logically, this will pass, but right now it’s worrisome. I don’t like not being able to concentrate on anything and I certainly don’t enjoy feeling stupid.
So, on Thursday and Friday when I said I was simply “taking the day off,” what I was really doing was struggling so badly to write or come up with topics that I had to write about the fact that I wasn’t really writing about anything. I’m sorry for that.
I’ve been chronically ill for over 20 years, and having anxiety and depression on top of it isn’t ideal, but this recent brain fog nonsense is new and concerning. Not being able to come up with topics is a frustrating situation for me, and one I don’t care to have show up again.
I felt the need to be straight with each of you.
I sincerely hope this fog dissipates sooner than later, but I will continue writing throughout. If I seem less coherent than usual, at least now you understand why.
This week, I have no idea how much I will be playing or what I will be playing. I keep trying to check in on Destiny 2 for the Festival of the Lost, but my attention span has been short at best. I’d love to say I will be back at it and playing all kinds of things, but the realist in me doesn’t know how feasible that plan is.
What will you be playing this week? Please let me live vicariously through you while I toil in this brain funk. I’d love to hear about what you’re playing, what you’ve played, and what you’re looking forward to playing. Will you be getting Red Dead Redemption 2 when it releases on Friday?
Thank you in advance for being understanding. I hope the fog lifts soon. <3
Please be safe out there, friends. Cheers.