As you can tell from the title, I am in the living heck that is being sick for weeks on end. I am still unable to eat much of anything due to extreme nausea, and even forcing myself to eat crackers is frustrating. Added to this, I have been having some strange dizzy spells and, because of that, playing anything has been kind of out of the question.

Despite that, I forced myself to play a couple hours of the Ghost Recon: Wildlands beta because I didn’t want to miss my chance to try it out before the retail release next month. Wildlands is my most anticipated game of 2017.

Or, I should say, it was my most anticipated game of 2017.

I and two (and then three) other people jumped in to play some missions. From the get go, I didn’t feel engaged with anything going on. At this point, Ubisoft has open worlds nailed; in Wildlands, I felt like nothing was very clear and things were too far apart. The gunplay felt okay but not even as tight as The Division (a game it bears much similarity to). I’m not one to be a stickler for visuals, but the open world didn’t look that good and pop-in was common.

At the end of our co-op session, none of us felt engaged and all of us decided to cancel our pre-orders and wait for the inevitable price break. It was disappointing.

I’m sure my not feeling well colored the experience a bit, but when everyone else had similar feelings, I felt I wasn’t too off the mark. Three of the four of us had played The Division (and had a good time of it), and while Wildlands felt similar, it was missing the same level of engagement.

And that has been the only thing I’ve played in the last couple of weeks. I’m trying to be patient and get my rest, but I’m super ready to start feeling better. I’m not going to lie: I’m starting to get cranky about it.

With that I will ask: what will you be playing this week? What did you play over the weekend?

I am going to go lay down and dream of eating without worrying I will somehow see it again.